I had a nightmare. And now I have a headache.

I had the most awful dream last night. But I can't really remember anything specific about it now... Does that ever happen to you? I almost NEVER remember my dreams. I mean, most of the time, I wake up feeling like I was just completely dead to the world for however-many hours, and I don't even feel like anything happened in my brain at all once my head hit the pillow. But every so often, I'll wake up from a dream and remember it for about thirty seconds. And then it all begins to rapidly fade away and just leave me with the knowledge that I did dream, but beyond that I can't recall any details. So last night, I woke up from some horrid dream, and all I wanted to do was go across the hall to where Joe was sleeping, and hug him and hold him tight. I was freaked out. The only thing I can recall from my dream is that I broke his heart. I don't know what I did or said, or what led up to that point, but I just woke up feeling so awful, like a colossal failure, and terribly afraid that whatever it was had really happened. I shortly realized I had been dreaming, but it was scary.

I've never really been one to try to examine dreams or figure out what they "mean" or whatever...probably because I never remember them anyway, so interpreting that is kind of difficult. And I don't believe that this dream I had last night is like, some omen or vision telling me I'm gonna screw things up. But I can't deny the unsettling feeling after waking up and imagining myself really doing it. Whatever it was. Breaking his heart. So this morning...I'm thankful for reality. And for a boyfriend who loves me and treats me so well. And I'm gonna do everything I can NOT to mess it up. So screw you, freaky dream.